You don't ask, I don't say,
Wordless whispers hit a barrier of hate,
The things that bind us now begin to break.
All I ever wanted was to know, was all of it just a show?
Wordless whispers hit a barrier of hate,
The things that bind us now begin to break.
All I ever wanted was to know, was all of it just a show?
The little things we talked about, is it all still the same? Won't you let me know?
How much I need to tell you, how much I crave to ask,
This separation is driving me insane, Is she really everything I'm not? Everything I don't hide behind a mask?
How much I need to tell you, how much I crave to ask,
This separation is driving me insane, Is she really everything I'm not? Everything I don't hide behind a mask?
Yes I overthink, Yes I'm eternally jealous, what could have been mine but isn't,
What should stop affecting me, but doesn't.
Yours is always the first thought that crosses my mind. And even after all these years the last.
Estranged Friends too strong a word isn't it? What were we, what are we, I still fail to grasp.
Every night I remember your hands in mine, and every moment still for you I pine.
If only you would call once, it's been so long since I've heard your stupid voice,
My brain turns to mush even now on hearing your name, But it's not always your choice.
What should stop affecting me, but doesn't.
Yours is always the first thought that crosses my mind. And even after all these years the last.
Estranged Friends too strong a word isn't it? What were we, what are we, I still fail to grasp.
Every night I remember your hands in mine, and every moment still for you I pine.
If only you would call once, it's been so long since I've heard your stupid voice,
My brain turns to mush even now on hearing your name, But it's not always your choice.
What happened to us, where did I go wrong? Yes I'm always the one to blame.
Why do I still shatter beyond repair every time I see you? And pray you read my eyes instead, search for that dead flame?
You would ask why now, Why after all this time?
It's the only time that I got away from this self imposed cage.
You would say I insult you with my words, with my silence, You respect my decision and stay away, Will you ever perceive that it's the only thing keeping me from falling apart?
but you can never gauge.
You would say your presence doesn't matter, I can't even frame words into a sentence near you,
try doing that without being overwhelmed someday,
look what I've turned into.
You would ask why now, Why after all this time?
It's the only time that I got away from this self imposed cage.
You would say I insult you with my words, with my silence, You respect my decision and stay away, Will you ever perceive that it's the only thing keeping me from falling apart?
but you can never gauge.
You would say your presence doesn't matter, I can't even frame words into a sentence near you,
try doing that without being overwhelmed someday,
look what I've turned into.
They tell me to hate you, they tell me to stay away. But that's a task I have yet to learn,
They tell me to find someone new, how can I when all I seek is you? For you are all I yearn?
I only wish you well, and hope all the success and happiness in the world is yours,
How much longer do I endure? When will this pain be gone? I'm still looking for the cure.
Do you feel this way too? Or am I just the fool here? I don't even know what these words will imply,
Please find this someday, so that I can be at peace that you know the reason why I never say goodbye.
They tell me to find someone new, how can I when all I seek is you? For you are all I yearn?
I only wish you well, and hope all the success and happiness in the world is yours,
How much longer do I endure? When will this pain be gone? I'm still looking for the cure.
Do you feel this way too? Or am I just the fool here? I don't even know what these words will imply,
Please find this someday, so that I can be at peace that you know the reason why I never say goodbye.
