Networking, networking and networking isnt that all what life is about?? (No I haven't watched dirty picture yet.. But vidya balan did so many promo's that I already feel like I've watched it a hundred times..)
Yes, Life... just a huge networking platform... Its all about who u know and how u can use that knowing.. Whether as references or as stepping stones to reach a better place.. Like Peter Keating in Fountainhead .. He got that right at a very early age.. Networking and using that network while simultaneously trying to hide that he doesn't know any stuff he's working on.. Afterall its only once your boss realises that you are, in essence, not doing much work or bringing on additional value to the organization that you are in deep shit.. Its another matter that Peter Keating was not smart enough to try and avoid that shit.. (I'm really hoping that I do avoid that shit, its been some time since I've been feigning stuff)
On another note, Kahlil Gibran says to always give without expecting gratitude. Yes I read him.. Though it doesn't mean I understand.. Neither do I agree with him for most stuff.. He says a tree gives fruits, does it ask for payment for it?? but doesn't economics apply everywhere? A plant as we learnt in science in god knows what primary, give fruits and flowers for the only reason that birds and insects are attracted and help in its polination process.. And natures got its own marketing and branding too, giving marketers a run for their money.. A fruit/flower is colourful/smelly all because it wants to attract birds and insects.. So quid pro quo prevails always.. Maybe not adequately but its always there..
Like when your in that bus u spend most your life in.. 2 hours sitting next to someone is reason enough that you need to know that person right? Even if that person is desperately trying to read and get to the end of a particularly interesting book.. and if that person is listening to extremely loud music, it makes perfect sense to ask them who are you.. Or even worse keep talking about yourself.. Even if that person has to keep removing her headphones to hear what you are saying.. You are Afterall paying a premium to travel in the bus, and you spend most of your life in it too.. Toh vasooli karneka na??
Sometimes I wonder, what do people think when I sit next to them in the bus? Do I actually look so gullible? Do people think that such networking on the bus will actually be of any use? I even got a job offer that way, it was another thing that I dint follow it up.. And No, I don't walk around with a board hanging on my head that says I want another one... Maybe its my face.. :P
There's also the type that absolutely has no shame in asking your phone number, hello? I know you for hardly an hour.. And u expect me to comply? Its a completely different matter that I do comply.. Cuz I being naive hadn't thought of a way to wiggle out of such a situation.. Yes, it answers my initial question doesn't it?? Gullible.. Extremely.. (but I have learnt my lesson now.. Do u expect me to get burnt and still go and put my hand in hot tea again?? How predictable of you!)
Some of these people are actually good.. They take ur number and forget about you.. Then there are Those who start by sending you dumb ass pjs (worse than the pakya ke jokes on the BEST screen.. Yeah there are worse ones) and then call up and ask whether their sending Those pjs is alrite.. You pick up the phone thinking what harm can a guy older than your father do.. And then you are stuck.. They keep calling you trying to improve their network and you keep ignoring their calls, but they simply don't get it.. They keep calling keep texting, until they finally realise its futile.. (I'm hoping that happens soon)
See nothing happens unless it is to benefit some one in some way.. Like the yearly benevolence that comes over me.... cleaning my wardrobe and my wallet, giving away stuff I've never used and probably will never ever use again to people who need them more than my wardrobe does. Or my wallet...
Again I have my own benefits in that
(i finally have place to fill up again :)) This time I'm also hoping that the universe notices I could do much more if I had much more... I am a one track mind arent i? Back to where I started from.. get me a job someone!!
Monday, January 30, 2012
Saturday, January 14, 2012
The Destiny of Choice
(this I know is very rare, my second poem to get published in 10 years..:)inspired by Ayn Rand)
Sometimes I wonder what is it that keeps me going, living my life as a lie, as I wander aimlessly through the streets..
Is it the mask I put on every morning? Is it the pain that doesn't let me sleep every night?
Is it the love I have lost? Or is it the love I may gain perchance tomorrow?
Is it the happiness of the people around me? Or is it the anger and jealousy I have against them?
Is it the choice I will be making today? Is it the decision I will be taking tomorrow?
Is it the hope that I can get my life back? Is it the hope that you will let me take it back?
No! I can't let you take control.. it is written you say.. So what? Can't I write my own?
Isn't what I've written so far enough to lead the way? Why don't you let me have my way?? Is my way not mine to choose?
Every man has the power to choose but no power to escape the necessity of choice, but here I am waiting for that moment when I do have to choose...What did I do wrong that you are giving me no choice?
Did I expect too much? Was it all unearned? Is there still something that I need to get done before I move on? I want answers.. Answer me now!! My scream echoes across the emptiness, the vastness of it all....
And there across this parched land in the dark night sky, is a face, a face that smiles, not kindly, not in contempt but in silent mockery. It says I have no power to choose unless that choice is bestowed upon me..
A face that smiles in silent mockery that absolutes are something I will always have to choose between..
A face that smiles in silent mockery that my life is not mine to choose, not mine to live...
Do I have to accept it? Do I have to take it lying down? Won't that be my defeat? I who thought that my life was mine to make?
Is that what you want to see me become? A person defeated by his own choice?
A person defeated by his own life? A person defeated by you? Another person in your long list of triumphs?
A person living a bigger lie than I'm living now? A person who will hate everything for the rest of his life??
A person who will never be able to overpower you?
Then again you don't give me no choice..
Oh but I will.. One day, overpower you.. Maybe not as soon as I hoped I would, but you will be defeated someday.. Some way...
Until then my life is yours to live.. Yours to keep..
Sometimes I wonder what is it that keeps me going, living my life as a lie, as I wander aimlessly through the streets..
Is it the mask I put on every morning? Is it the pain that doesn't let me sleep every night?
Is it the love I have lost? Or is it the love I may gain perchance tomorrow?
Is it the happiness of the people around me? Or is it the anger and jealousy I have against them?
Is it the choice I will be making today? Is it the decision I will be taking tomorrow?
Is it the hope that I can get my life back? Is it the hope that you will let me take it back?
No! I can't let you take control.. it is written you say.. So what? Can't I write my own?
Isn't what I've written so far enough to lead the way? Why don't you let me have my way?? Is my way not mine to choose?
Every man has the power to choose but no power to escape the necessity of choice, but here I am waiting for that moment when I do have to choose...What did I do wrong that you are giving me no choice?
Did I expect too much? Was it all unearned? Is there still something that I need to get done before I move on? I want answers.. Answer me now!! My scream echoes across the emptiness, the vastness of it all....
And there across this parched land in the dark night sky, is a face, a face that smiles, not kindly, not in contempt but in silent mockery. It says I have no power to choose unless that choice is bestowed upon me..
A face that smiles in silent mockery that absolutes are something I will always have to choose between..
A face that smiles in silent mockery that my life is not mine to choose, not mine to live...
Do I have to accept it? Do I have to take it lying down? Won't that be my defeat? I who thought that my life was mine to make?
Is that what you want to see me become? A person defeated by his own choice?
A person defeated by his own life? A person defeated by you? Another person in your long list of triumphs?
A person living a bigger lie than I'm living now? A person who will hate everything for the rest of his life??
A person who will never be able to overpower you?
Then again you don't give me no choice..
Oh but I will.. One day, overpower you.. Maybe not as soon as I hoped I would, but you will be defeated someday.. Some way...
Until then my life is yours to live.. Yours to keep..
Monday, January 2, 2012
Another new year, another Round-Up..
So, that’s another year. A whole year after the initiation of soul-searching. Time for another roundup ie.
1. Confusion is here to stay. It started midyear just after there was nothing to learn from textbooks anymore and by my reckoning is it isn’t going anywhere for the next few years.
2. I hate working in Mumbai. There’s hardly any time to do anything else other than work, wait for that stupid AC bus that decides you ditch you every second day, wait for a crowded train to try and get in cuz that stupid AC bus decided to ditch you, and by then you are so exhausted that all you crave for is your pillow and blanket. Oh and did I forget to mention that Sundays are no respite from it all too? Only maybe travel…
3. People expect great things from you, like mentoring juniors, leadership, and responsibility for a meager salary. Something that doesn’t compensate 7 day a week work and all that travel.
4. I have no hope to join an organization that takes pity on its employees and gives them ultra portable/ thin/ at least manageable laptops. 10 kilos is my cross to bear until things change (That’s what it feels like).
5. Leadership skills are not something that you are taught in classes. While everything else from teamwork to mentoring, smartness to auditing may be something that I am born with, leadership is something I haven’t breached so far and that is the main reason for my downfall.
6. No matter how hard you try, one day you will end up writing emails that you once laughed at when others wrote you such ones in the past.
7. If you earn, it’s obvious you are going to spend it so bad that you yearn for the month to get over again. There can never be enough shoes, bags and clothes in your closet. Shopping once in two weeks is what I’ve reduced it to now, that too considering the amount of time I’m around shops that are open.
8. Dissatisfaction is here to stay as well. You are going to be dissatisfied for the rest of your life if you’re where I’m at. Let’s just hope this too will pass... And that you guys are never where I’m at…
9. Allergies don’t happen when you’re finding a reason to stay at home from work… They are mainly just to annoy you during exams, when you wake up with your fingers swollen i.e. and now I’ve determined what I’m really allergic to - Stress... Really its doctor certified.
10. I haven’t done anything that I’m proud of in my life yet, and it’s really annoying to lie to all interviewers what are my biggest achievements in life. The first place that didn’t ask me this dumb question is where I finally got the job.
11. There is no professionalism in any office. All offices are prone to a minimum of 3 hours of small talk/ gossip and I don’t like it.
12. I understand jokes that others don’t. And don’t understand ones that others do. (Am I crazy.. yes, definitely)
13. No matter how long you will your phone to ring, whether for interview calls or hoping that someone telepathically thinks of you and calls you up, it never happens. The phone has never ever been under your control and never will be, unless Matilda happens to you…
14. I’m still not over him, I never will be and I hate him right now, and I will continue to hate him for the rest of my life (If you are reading this and you know who I mean is you, I so hope you curl up and die right now.. No don’t, maybe a slow painful death is waiting for you)
15. And finally, I hate it when I lose control, I absolutely hate it that I’m now going where Life is taking me, and I’m going along with life just because I have no other option. Mind you I still haven’t accepted and that I’m complying with all of it under protest (Just too much of Customs, I know)
That’s it of 2011. If you found this list boring and unreadable just hope that the Mayan prophecy comes true and you won’t have another roundup at the end of this one…
Anywho, Happy Suffering guys...
1. Confusion is here to stay. It started midyear just after there was nothing to learn from textbooks anymore and by my reckoning is it isn’t going anywhere for the next few years.
2. I hate working in Mumbai. There’s hardly any time to do anything else other than work, wait for that stupid AC bus that decides you ditch you every second day, wait for a crowded train to try and get in cuz that stupid AC bus decided to ditch you, and by then you are so exhausted that all you crave for is your pillow and blanket. Oh and did I forget to mention that Sundays are no respite from it all too? Only maybe travel…
3. People expect great things from you, like mentoring juniors, leadership, and responsibility for a meager salary. Something that doesn’t compensate 7 day a week work and all that travel.
4. I have no hope to join an organization that takes pity on its employees and gives them ultra portable/ thin/ at least manageable laptops. 10 kilos is my cross to bear until things change (That’s what it feels like).
5. Leadership skills are not something that you are taught in classes. While everything else from teamwork to mentoring, smartness to auditing may be something that I am born with, leadership is something I haven’t breached so far and that is the main reason for my downfall.
6. No matter how hard you try, one day you will end up writing emails that you once laughed at when others wrote you such ones in the past.
7. If you earn, it’s obvious you are going to spend it so bad that you yearn for the month to get over again. There can never be enough shoes, bags and clothes in your closet. Shopping once in two weeks is what I’ve reduced it to now, that too considering the amount of time I’m around shops that are open.
8. Dissatisfaction is here to stay as well. You are going to be dissatisfied for the rest of your life if you’re where I’m at. Let’s just hope this too will pass... And that you guys are never where I’m at…
9. Allergies don’t happen when you’re finding a reason to stay at home from work… They are mainly just to annoy you during exams, when you wake up with your fingers swollen i.e. and now I’ve determined what I’m really allergic to - Stress... Really its doctor certified.
10. I haven’t done anything that I’m proud of in my life yet, and it’s really annoying to lie to all interviewers what are my biggest achievements in life. The first place that didn’t ask me this dumb question is where I finally got the job.
11. There is no professionalism in any office. All offices are prone to a minimum of 3 hours of small talk/ gossip and I don’t like it.
12. I understand jokes that others don’t. And don’t understand ones that others do. (Am I crazy.. yes, definitely)
13. No matter how long you will your phone to ring, whether for interview calls or hoping that someone telepathically thinks of you and calls you up, it never happens. The phone has never ever been under your control and never will be, unless Matilda happens to you…
14. I’m still not over him, I never will be and I hate him right now, and I will continue to hate him for the rest of my life (If you are reading this and you know who I mean is you, I so hope you curl up and die right now.. No don’t, maybe a slow painful death is waiting for you)
15. And finally, I hate it when I lose control, I absolutely hate it that I’m now going where Life is taking me, and I’m going along with life just because I have no other option. Mind you I still haven’t accepted and that I’m complying with all of it under protest (Just too much of Customs, I know)
That’s it of 2011. If you found this list boring and unreadable just hope that the Mayan prophecy comes true and you won’t have another roundup at the end of this one…
Anywho, Happy Suffering guys...
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