The end is here

So GMCS started (1st day not so bad, rest not that good). And I have 2 hours of travel time everyday.. So that means 2 hours of writing everyday.. Cuz I tried to read on the way to gmcs and the nausea still not gone.. Maybe because of the way these best ppl drive, I think I'm gonna die every minute.. Or maybe its just a long time since I've been in a bus (well actually No, we needed a bus to get anywhere in kerala.. With so many people and all but definitely not BEST)

And I finally watched 2012.. I know, yes I KNOW.. But u can't watch too many movies if you are following my lifestyle.. Well yes its not actually a life ...

I think that completes the list doesn't it? Hollywoods obsession with the end of the world.. But what would happen if the world actually ended in dec 2012? Arc or no arc all movies make it clear that india doesn't figure anywhere on any map.. So what it means is we are all gonna die.. Yaay.. I think my only regret would be that I slogged too much just to end up dead..

The more scary thing that death I think is life. Imagine you survive this end, what then? Do u think anyone will need a finance/accounts guy when there are definitely not going to be any resources. And if there is no end, then you are left to live pretty much the same life which is more like hell than life...

why is death so scary?
Because its a mystery? What's so mysterious if all that it is, is a void?This time on our flight back we hit an air pocket, and the plane dropped.. It probably lasted less than a minute but the look of terror on the faces of everyone, I don't think I'll forget that easily.. Everyone hung on to their seats like as if that's gonna save them from dying.. I was scared too and yes I hung on to the seat as well.. Until some kid screamed.. That got me back to earth (well actually still on air).. What was the worst thing that could happen, death right.. But then I'm not scared of death.. So then everything became calm again..

Tomorrow is death in another way.. Results ie... I'm scared shit and I'm sure I'm gonna die more than once before 2 tomorrow.. You may ask why do something that kills you. Well I agree but its a bit too late to ask that now isn't it? You should have thought of asking this 4 years ago when the end began..

There's no use of whining now is there.. I should have thought about all this earlier, before starting prep atleast.. But now the only thing to do is keep my fingers crossed and pray to all known and unknown gods to please, please forgive me for not realizing that much more prep was required and that I should have started much earlier.

PS. Is luck directly proportional to the number of fingers crossed? I'm sitting here with all ten on my hands and trying to cross my toes as well :) Wish me luck guys..

A month of bliss

Its a month since I've written anything barring a few cheques, the gmcs form and maybe some fb posts.. A whole month!! So what news this month?

Well I'm basically having the time of my life (yep sarcastically) here in good old kerala.. Waking up late, visiting old people, sightseeing and yeah temples. That's the only thing good about kerala.. Temples. Lovely architecture, wonderful prasad and crowd that will put VT station at peak hour to shame.. And for all those people who have visited kerala as tourists and loved it.. Yes I'm from kerala and yes I have been going there pretty much every two years of my life, regularly, and No.. I don't know any of the kerala that u guys know..

Oh and the usual.. Sore throat and tonsils.. I'm ashamed by it, so old and still got that kiddo thing.. Every time the weather changes that too. Fever sore throat and a voice no one can recognize.. Wonderful right?

Oh and the main thing... I'm in love.. Yep in love.. <3<3

I'm in love with this nothingness.. And Laziness.. And this emptiness.. Waking up late, early sometimes, then walking around in a daze until I sleep again... Of course after castle that is.. And I've started reading again. I finally got over the moment in the bookstore when I thought that tax and law have destroyed my reading habits..

I never thought I could stay in anyplace for 4 weeks away from home. that too in kerala.. Where time used to go so slow that even after all that visiting and temples u look down at your watch and its still 7. No the watch is not broken.. Its just that time seems to go slow here..

But this time was different. This has to be the fastest three weeks in kerala ever.. And every day gets me closer to the result though Im tryin my best to forget about it AND I have already forgotten all what I'd learnt anyway.. But then again nevermind. Its useless to think about something u can't do anything about right? but then its one thing to say and another to do.. (Yeah I am very confused)

I love the rain here.. Like gods taken a fancy to watering the state with a hose.. It rains all day sometimes and nothing on some and ur clothes are always wet and musty.

I love the belief people have. Say ur results are due and they say don't worry, ur gonna clear, I'm saying so and a very south indian 'no' after the so..

I love the space, the green.. The everyday bandh, the random relatives that pop up at odd times of the day like 8 in the morning or 3 in the afternoon.. Yes that's when people go visiting... When people go to buy milk for their morning tea of course it makes perfect sense in dropping in to enquire why there are salwars and denims hanging on the clothes line..

I love it that I don't spend all day in front of the television and still am not bored. I love it that I have nothing to look forward to.. And I love it that this time I have nothing to do, nothing at all. Well except start packing to get back home again.. And start dreading the 2 hour journey to get to GMCS..

And thanks guys for the sms's and calls.. Now I know that at least someone's reading this..